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POW!-ell’s

26 Apr

I spent the weekend in Portland, OR.

Now, I’ve lived in the PNW for a little more than five years, and it pains me to say that other than on drunken rugby weekends with the Old Man, I hadn’t yet spent any time exploring PDX–which is a city, I assure you, that is known for much more than “steak and titties“.  With travel credits about to expire, I logged in to Expedia and booked a sweet Starlight Room downtown and planned this weekend.  We found a friend to watch the pets and we piled into the truck, sailing out for adventure.  The Old Man drove us out and I spent a nice trio of hours chatting with him and catching up on the tower of Vogues from my living room.  Upon riding in to town, we picked up the youngest of my brothers-in-law and ate a disgustingly delicious lunch at a hole-in-the-wall burrito joint in the barrio.  (Well, as barrio as you can get around these parts….)

From there, it was off to the original reason for this trip, the dream, the goal:  Powell’s City of Books.  Now, if you Google Powell’s, you’ll see that it is world famous for its size and scope of material.  Set on an entire city block, it is a huge building housing books that must number in the millions.  It is a compilation of used and new offerings, and, in order to offset the damage you do to your wallet upon entering, they do you the service of buying back any books you don’t want in your own collection.  With a $30 credit in hand, I grabbed a handbasket and went to work.  From the minute I stepped into the stacks, I was in heaven.

Floor to ceiling shelves stretched as far as my eye could see….row upon row upon row of books dazzled me and I was well nigh overwhelmed.  Having been to and enjoyed many a Half Price Books, I thought I knew what I was getting myself into, but I had no idea.  It became clear very quickly that I needed a strategy…wandering aimlessly would do me no good.  It was time for a plan.

1.  Everything Went:  there was no way I would have been able to remember and re-find anything I MIGHT HAVE wanted to return to.  If I was even the slightest bit interested, I put it in my plastic bin.  I sorted everything out and made final decisions just before checking out.  (Note:  It turns out, my first instinct rules me.  I did not put anything back.  Not a single thing.  It was indulgent and decadent. I will not wince until I pay the credit card bill next month.)

2.  Take ‘em Two At A Time:  I’m not kidding you, this building was the size of a city block and 3 stories high.  The ceilings are approximately 13 feet and each of the bookshelves takes advantage of that entire height.  If I were to have walked down a row twice, the first spending time on one side and the second on the other, I’d've been there for days.  Instead, I browsed one section of shelves, and then turned around to catch the same section on the other side.

3.  Leave No Copy Unturned:  From the get-go, I saw that many times, there was more than one edition of a book.  I looked through them all to find the least expensive copy.  This place is kind of like Costco.  Everything is inexpensive, but the sheer nature of buying in bulk is that you’re going to drop a dime or two.  It was in my wallet’s best interest that I pinched pennies where I could.

4.  Fiction First:  Look, I read everything.  Theory, classics, history, biography…. My name is Jen, and I’m an addict.  The written word is my opiate.  I’ll read a cereal box in its entirety if I’m lacking anything else.  But my collection, though varied, is ruled by Fiction.  My first love, the most dominant, has always been a flight of fancy.  My full attention went to this section.

5.  Let The Eye Rule:  In many ways, if I’m not after something specific, I choose my books like I choose wine at the grocery store:  by the label.  I’ll be drawn in by the cover, and let the final decision go to the jacket description.  At Powell’s there was no other way to do it.  Aside from the few recommendations that I was picking up, this was a purely sensory visit.  A shopping trip of chance.  I wasn’t here to stock up, or round out my shelves (otherwise I’d have spent another chunk of change ONLY on Vonnegut), I simply let myself be drawn in by whim.

In the end, my strategy was only mildly successful.  In three hours, I made it through Fiction and was able to skim the Feminist Theory stacks.  At the end of the Zs, I stared forlornly down at my bin-o-books. The weight of the basket had become a lesson in the isometric isolation of my biceps and the rain on my parade.  I simply couldn’t carry any more.  I tripped around a bit, still unwilling to give up the ghost, and then, finally,  sat to do my final sort.  Sigh. What I needed was a sherpa.  And another 8 hours.

I bid a reluctant adieu to the floors and sections of territory that would remain, to me, uncharted, and thunked my spoils down on the cash wrap.  With a thrill, I re-chose each title as it was uncovered by the last and handed over my Visa.  I called the Old Man to help me with my bags and we headed back to the brewery where he’d been sitting, chatting with his youngest brother for the previous two hours.  We sat as I reviewed my spoils and I ordered a drink.  Which!  Reminds me of:

6.  Books + Beer:  Pale Ales and paperbacks.  Bloody perfect.

The stack is sitting in front of me still—partially because I didn’t sell back enough books to accommodate these which I acquired (this is the express train to an episode of Hoarders, dear reader), but mostly because of the little bit of joy I get from a thing as simple as a teetering pile of tomes.  The rest of the weekend was lovely and even mostly sunny.  But Powell’s and I have some unfinished business, and I eagerly await my opportunity to return.

Gift

30 Dec

The Prompt:

This month, gifts and gift-giving can seem inescapable. What’s the most memorable gift, tangible or emotional, you received this year? (Author: Holly Root)

As the car gets parked, I’m agitated.  Antsy.  Anxious.  I’m thinking of the walk that always takes too long.  I’m silently willing anyone with me to be quick about getting their things together so we can GET THERE NOW.  I am visualizing the stopping point, breathing through my nose to calm the excitement that’s jittering around my stomach.  My soul is already out there and I’m not listening to anything going on around me.  Precious minutes are lost with a final inventory and impatience breaks out in force all over my face.  I point my chest forward and set the pace, always faster than anyone else would have chosen.

It roars at me as I approach; a percussive din stirring in my chest a feeling so deep

that I think I might cry.  With harried anticipation, I speed up, barely careful not to stub my toes on the uneven and sun-bleached boards.  In a supreme test of will, I manage, only barely, to resist the siren song tempting me to drop everything and run, flat-out, ahead.  Just as my heart is about to burst through my ribcage, the weathered esplanade gives way to sand and my objective is reached.  I am at the beach.

Here, I stop to take off my shoes.  I bury my feet momentarily and  incline my face toward the sun, allowing those tears to sting and leak through the closed line of my eyelids.  On this spot, I breathe my soul back in, reuniting it with the body it had skipped ahead of the second this idea became possible.  It is all autopilot now as we find The Spot, and I hastily lay my things down and strip to my two piece, running with abandon for the waterline.

After my first plunge in, the frenetic joy slows down and mellows into sun-baked delectation.  I pop open a Sam Summer, ease my body back onto my towel and delight in the feel of the sand settling underneath my weight.  As if on a battery charger, my skin absorbs the suns rays, browning in contentment, the tiny hairs on my arms slowly bleaching out as the minutes tick past.  The knife-fight of my thoughts slows and stops, soothed by the supreme white noise of the waves.

The beach DOES THINGS to me.  It calms me, tranquilizes me, centers me; it opens its arms and welcomes me, washing me clean and cauterizing my traumas.  It’s immensity and age strike me dumb and it is the only place where I feel connected and unbroken.  As grains of sand scratch over each other and move in the breeze and the gulls call overhead, time slows for me and I breathe out all the bitter and the poisonous.  Cancerous doubts and misgivings seep away and leave only my quieted mind.  My life and all its days are AWAY.  The beach, the seaspray, the salt in the air, they are HOME; every minute, every experience, every chore leading up to the moment that I can walk in that front door and be where I belong once more.

This year wasn’t really much for largesse.  I feel like much more was taken out of than given to me.  The one gift that stands out, however, is the one that I gave myself, and that is the large amount of time I was able to spend on any one of a number of beaches this summer.  With no job to worry about returning to, an uncertainty of the road ahead and a breaking point having been reached, the beach was even more Divine than usual, it’s effects like a white-wash for my soul.

Sitting here now, rocking in my chair by the window, I can close my eyes and feel the sun’s rays on my face, and almost trick myself into believing that the sounds from the highway are waves crashing 10 yards from my toes.  The illusion is broken though by the base of the TV of the tenants below me and the turkey in the refridgerator waiting to be dressed and the looming deadline of getting this piece posted…..It’s only an apparition, a mirage.  Like my Burt’s Bees Lip Balm, only the real deal will do.

5 Minutes

15 Dec

The Prompt:

Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010. (Author: Patti Digh)

My toes in the sand, the glorious sand, on Bald Head Island, NC, Wrightsville and Sunset Beach, NC, Hampton Bays, NY and Mastic Beach, NY.  I don’t want to forget a single second of any of those trips I was so lucky to take this year.

The beach at Bald Head Island, NC

Drunken golf carts on Bald Head Island, NC for my birthday trip in April.

No better way to get around!

Drunken Shakespeare in the Park.  D and T paid a member of the company to read me a sonnet during intermission.  It was delightfully embarrassing.

Thai food and a hand-epoxy’d bar surface

Drunken afternoon spent at a new winery and then watching the newest installment of the Twilight saga at the theatre.  (Don’t judge me monkey.)

K.A. will kick your ass if you even try to say we ruined a perfectly good afternoon with Jacob and Edward.

Drunkenly breaking J.L’s pull-out couch with M.D at the end of a crazy evening at the Turtle.  It was really already broken, but in our stupor, we laughed and laughed, especially when we couldn’t get it to go back into the couch.

Yes, we ended up sleeping (read: passing out) on the floor. Bachelor's!

People watching at the Tiki Bar in Patchogue where we realized that the fact that you had to be 27 to get in WAS NOT as good a thing as we had anticipated.  Three cheers for old friends and being the youngest ones there by 15 years at least.

The Mystery Machine, Goonies house, a birthday Bismark, lunch at the Rogue Brewery and marauding the town of Astoria, OR with D.E who stands by my side stalwartly despite the mistakes I make.

A perfect girls' weekend for two.

The return of Safety Meetings after a four year hiatus.

Pravda; a fantastic vodka bar in Wilmington, NC

Cabaret Burlesque; such a great show!

Is it fuzzy because I'm artsy?

“I fell off my shoes!”

Platform sandals + Whiskey + Sidewalk planters = Face plant and road rash

The punch that broke my camera.  Someone pulled up my dress (twice) on Hallowe’en and I had my camera in my punching hand.  RIP.

Caffe Lena with my Dad

The sound of my Dad's acoustic guitar means HOME to me.

Catch up beers at the Monopole in Plattsburgh, NY and the sudden rainstorm that soaked us all later that night at the Naked Turtle.

Laughing until my stomach hurt with my mother when I almost rolled off the 50 year old double mattress that we were sharing at my Grandparents in Connecticut.

I don't even care that I'm wearing my glasses in this one. It's so rare to get my mother to JUST LAUGH and this moment was just really pure and joyful.

Holding babies Caden and Jack and smelling that crazy and intoxicating baby smell coming off the heat of their fuzzy little heads.

Venus Flytraps

Remembering what it’s like to be listened to; truly listened to

Homemade Margaritas

Rubbing my best girl’s pregnant buddha belly and being heartbroken that I couldn’t be more involved in the process of the first child born to our small clique.

Martin Van Buren!  And the psycho ninja turkey on the Taconic. “What the fuck is GOING ON RIGHT NOW?!”

None of those moments would have been close to as funny without the original MVB: T.K.

Desire denied

Recovering Love

I know that the addition of pictures makes it obvious that this post took a bit longer than 5 minutes, but I swear, that all the text (except for this epilogue) was completed in the alotted time.  I simply thought that this entry could benefit from some visual aids.

Party

9 Dec

Prompt:

What social gathering knocked your socks off in 2010?  Describe the people, music, food, drink, clothes, shenanigans.   (Author:  Shauna Reid)

I think not.  The second I read this prompt, I couldn’t stop thinking how stupid it sounded.  Granted, finishing it would be a form of reflection, but in the end, who cares?  Who wants to read about some party I went to and what people were wearing?  I mean, I spent two and a half months this past summer traveling home and spending time with family and old friends.  The idea of recounting even the highlight reel of this trip is exhausting, not to mention, completely pointless.

BUT….I signed up for the challenge and finish it I will. Rather than bore you, dear reader, with pages of descriptions of people and places you don’t know, I decided the best way to participate today was through photos.  Here’s a glimpse into my life over the past year.  Enjoy!

I held my *first ever!* newborn baby this year.  It was during the Rose Bowl (Go Buckeyes!) and he slept through the entire ordeal.  After this, I was forced to admit that babies aren’t as scary as I’d originally thought.

A Little Elf

I helped my friend D ring in her 30th birthday on a girls’ weekend trip to Astoria, OR.  We found the Goonies House, the Mystery Machine and countless other treasures.  It was rainy in the classic Pacific Northwest way and I cherish every second.

The Goonies House!

My husband (not pictured) and I  hauled our asses out of bed at 4:00am on a number of different Saturdays to watch the Six Nations Rugby Tournament at Fado in Seattle.  There aren’t many better ways to start a morning than with an Irish Breakfast, Bloody Marys and whiskey shots.

Italia!!!

Rugby is a large part of our life, and this picture was taken the weekend of the DIII Championship Tournament.  It seems tame, but that’s only because I can’t show you the pictures of male genitalia flying around a stripper pole or the various other homoerotic situations that I caught on film.  Suffice to say, a grand time was had by all.

Attempting to look sober

The following are a series from my trip east over the summer.  Friends and family are food for the soul.

The Satellite; Wilmington, NC

The Most Amazing Handmade Margaritas EVER; Papi's Texican Grill-SC

Shots in Asheville, NC

Cabaret Burlesque; Wilmington, NC

Old Friends and a Tiki-Lounge; Patchogue, NY

A Kiss For a Very Pregnant Girlfriend; Shirley, NY

Three Generations of Sicilian Ladies; East Berlin, CT

And finally, come the remaining months of the year upon my return to WA.

L'Ecole Winery; Walla Walla, WA

Hallowe'en with The Quake; Port Orchard, WA

Thanks for your indulgence (if you’re even still reading).  Hopefully tomorrow’s prompt will be more insightful and interesting.  Cheers!

Wonder

4 Dec

The Prompt:

How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year?

(Author: Jeffrey Davis)

I went home.

Not as in “walked into my apartment”, but as in “flew across  the country with  my tail between my legs and cried to my mom and dad”.

I’m 31 years old and, for as long as I’ve been inhabiting me, I’ve had terrible bouts of what my friend Melissa aptly refers to as The Sad.  It comes in waves and varying degrees (ranging from: A Little Blue to: A Gaping Black Void of Complete and Utter Hopelessness) and taints my world and relationships until I’m able to recognize it and claw my way out.  2010 came pretty close to that thundering abyss:

A dreaded move, a just-this-side-of-failing marriage, an overwhelming and desolate loneliness….all sped me right to a cliff of uncharacteristic and selfish decisions.  I jumped right off  in my scramble away from that Sad, blindly leaving a trail of hurt; trampling over the bodies of people I loved, respected and needed.

So, with a too-brief detour to the beach in between, I flew my raggedy ass 3000 miles from Pasco, WA to my parents’ doorstep in Clifton Park, NY.  It was time to have the shit slapped out of (and sense back into) me by my mother, and to be rebuilt by my father.    For a month and a half I cowered and cried and hugged my knees in the only place in the world I know to have a My Life Reset Button.  I layed (laid?  shit.) down on my lumpy, old-as-shit mattress in my barely recognizable old room (trying to believe that mom had a right to redecorate….), and I reabsorbed ME.

I had the same old arguments with my mother, gave my diabetic father the same shit when I found his candy stash, visited all the old places where my ghost still walked and I covered myself in it all.  I found that I could go home, that it had become the only place unassailable by the chaos I had been creating.  With my eyes squinched shut, the tears leaking out, my head down and my arms crossed tightly at my chest, I let my family, my home, hold me tightly until I was ready for the world again.

I didn’t cultivate wonder there, (I’d lost that ability somewhere in 2010), my family did.  They extended a hand to me as I was laying on the gravel, put mercurochrome on my skinned knees, held me until I stopped crying and shoved me back out to the world to give it another go.  I flew back sore and scarred, but ready again to move forward again and begin my reparations.

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